“At times, I was afraid when I thought about when I was going to come back or if I would,” Kaka said on the Real Madrid website. “I must now earn a spot as the team’s in great form.”
After having surgery on his left knee in August, he returned to first-team training on 18 December and played his first 15 minutes of football this season against Getafe.
Kaka admitted that, despite the encouragement and support of coach Jose Mourinho, his time on the sidelines had been a dark period.
“I’ve had some tough times and the things I’ve missed the most are the team get-togethers, training with my team-mates, being with them in the dressing room, playing before our supporters. I lacked the joy I get from playing. I’m available now and I will do my best to play with joy again. A player feels very much alone when he is seriously injured and you go through it alone despite the help you get from others.”
Having Kaka come back in January is like Real Madrid adding a new superstar signing to their lineup. Madrid entered the new year having in the group stage of the Champions League where they will play Lyon, and second in La Liga, two points behind Barcelona.